Wild and Free - Edward R. Kenzakoski III






















 
 
 
                      My  Continued Connection to my Son
                         ..... Sharing My Spiritual Journey....
                              
The search for my Son has led me on an unbelievable spiritual  journey that i know I have just begun to experience. A whole new world is being introduced to me, glimpse by glimpse. .I now do not just believe that love never dies......I KNOW! I want to share this beautiful experience with you., maybe to help you, maybe to spread the awarenss........that we do not die..........we are energy! .We just transition into the next dimension. of eternity when we leave our physical bodies! Awaken with me!  There is so much more than the eye can see when you really "open" them!
 
My Spiritual journey began when I found meditation and I was able to free my spirit from my ego. When I was able to lift the thick, heavy, slow energy of grief that enveloped me., love...with a different frequency, was able to get through..................My Son was able to reach me.......connect with me!
 
 From the time he was able...............he gave me hearts! EVERYTHING was hearts! Drawings, gifts......his heart......he always gave.  He loved nature! He loved wildlife!  He was an avid outdoors man!  He collected rocks and arrow heads and crystals! This is how he now connects with me! He makes sure I "know" that he is with me still!   Peace and love, Sandy (Ed's Mom Forever and After)
 
 
 
 
The rocks that find me...........walking in peace..in
nature...at times of great need...at times when prayed for a sign....anytime....all the time!
My house is being over run by heart rocks! Heart coral, heart shells!
Too many to photograph!
Hearts are everywhere!
Not just the rocks! Everywhere I look!  The puddles!  The food I eat!  The holes in the pavement!  The wood grain! The water stains!  The gum on the ground!  The oil stains on the ground!
 
 
   Clouds in the sky! The leaves on the trees! The mementos I find around the house from my Son!! The dream I had that Ed came to me and opened his hands...full of rocks...I picked one and it was a red heart rock!!  I was overwelmed with joy!!!!  He smiled and shook his head.....letting me know that, Yes....he was sending them to me!!!  This was so amazing and such a strong connection...I had it tattooed on my back....engraved into my skin forever...with me always!!!
 
The Heart of lead Ed made me in 9th grade shop class...now is my favorite piece of jewelry!
 
 
 
 
 
This proof...before my eyes was just the beginning of our re-newed connection!  He was just letting me know he was still with me............to help me grow and evolve for  a deeper understanding of what our reality really is.  I'am not the same person I was when my Son walked this Earth beside me.  Everyday the veil lifts a bit more.....revealing more to me.  Some I capture on photo..........some I can only share with you.  Some is so sacred............it was meant for me alone....my personal spiritual evolution...........and even if I shared....you would have to experience it yourself to truly  believe..to "know" as I do!
 
My journey has led me to writing a book on all I have lived and experienced thus far.  The process has just begun......I wanted to tell Ed's story...because noone has done himJustice!  I want you to know him...all that he was....all that he endured due to injustice, greed, and power!  However,  It has evolved into so much more!  The real story is about what he has opened up and taught to me...to  this world......A chance for everyone to see..to truly "see"!!!  It is about awakening the awarenss..so that "we" can create the change this lifetime needs to survive!  To wake up!  He does this through me!  He has placed me in position to jump start this work!!  I now understand and "know"!  He  puts me where I need to be at the perfect time and works through me!  Our work is to awaken the spirit in those walking in this physical lifetime............we are like zombies......working to create more wealth, more material possessions, more status, more power............but in all reality...we are asleep!  This lifetime we were born into is about learning and growing our spirit to evolve farther in spiritual evolution.; to create enormous transformation in this physical world........which can only be accomplished by truly being awake in the present..in the now!  Letting go of all the  material...and knowing and growing yourself.  Peace and love..............this is what will end the wars and the violence and transform our world into what our reality was meant to be. I am now beginning to  understand  that by leaving me......leaving me to be all alone....no longer, "Ed's Mom".....me...my tiltle...........his life was my life!  I was so engrossed in his life that I didnt even have a life...I didn't even know who I was!  He was my all...my everything!  Now..left alone........faced with only me................I have had no choice but to get to know "me". I didnt want to early on...........I distanced myself from my reality...........  It's just beginning ...but Iam getting to know me......and I believe I will evolve into what I came here to experience and evolve into...grow my spirit!  I will share all I am experiencing and learning.....in hopes it will awaken you on your journey.............. We need to change the direction this world that we have created while we were asleep, is heading. We need to join together, "awoken" and create our world as we wish it to be!
 
 5/18/14....sharing

sharing from my Mother's Day experience!
     I was feeling very heart-heavy....I was feeling sorry for myself...I was wishing everyone else in my life and on a facebook a Happy mother's Day..all the while wishing I could  just skip over...surpass the agaony of the heavy day.
     Suddenly my iphone starts BLARING....BLARING some song!!!  I wasnt listening to the words..I just wanted it to stop...it was sooo loud....I dont listen to music..its just too painful..im always afraid "that" song will play...and they all remind me of Ed in some way....I just dont listen.  Anyway....i prefer silence.  The noise was driving me crazy!  I frantically searched at how to find it to turn it off!!  I dont have music apps???  Still not listening to the words...just wanting it..needing it to stop!  I was crying loudly now....I wanted to be in my gloomy pain..where I was most comfortable.....SHUT UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  finally I see an icon for "music" at the bottom of my screen page...I click it..and all I see is a dark blue screen with stars twinkling and these huge angel wings???  NOW it has my attention...then I see the name of the song...." A Sky Full of Stars"..by Cold Play....the name of the albulm is also listed..."GHOST STORIES" !!!!!!!!!!!!!!  WTF???????????  Now it totally has my attention and i click on to hear the lyrics..............and I fall...but in utter awe.......in heartfelt joy...at that exact moment..my baby got through to me as usual!!  Except for physically being able to be with my Son..touch him..hear him see him..There could never be a greater gift...and always at THE most perfect moment....he is simple amazing and will never cease to amaze me...whats even more amazing......it was brand new...not even available to purchase yet!!!   Now it is all over the place!!  On tv tonight for a special.....seeing cold Play perform it live.....took my breath away...I had to share!!  Ill be looking for them on tour!!!!  Happy Mother's Day everyone!!!

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